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names of tesosterone

TopHill — Thu, 17 May 2012 01:19:15 GMT

I will be starting hormone treatment. I currently live in Manitoba and I'm not quite sure if I'm covered for hormones (Long story short I'm covered through an n number its like status). Does anyone know the names of testosterone? ex: depo testosterone ect. I want to see if I can get covered.

Greetings from Orleans, Ottawa

Ash — Tue, 15 May 2012 07:54:57 GMT

Hello everyone, I finally summed up the courage to join a forum and introduce myself!

I am 23 and have spent the last year or so piecing together all the clues in my life that lead me to believe I was born male when I should have been born female. I know I didn't like the way my body was changing when I started puberty but did my best to ignore it. Even so I was bullied and called gay from grade 6-8. After the bullying I kinda stuck to myself and have been a loner ever since. At 16 I started questioning myself, my habits and the way people saw things about me that I had ignored or not noticed before. Finally, after a long battle with depression during university I stopped ignoring the fact that I just don't feel comfortable in my own skin.

Back to today, so far, my sister and one of my cousins know. My sister is supportive and a bit bemused by the idea of having a sister, while my cousin thinks I'm just confused but she supports my decision anyway. My grandparents and mom are catholic and don't approve of gay-anything so I'm at a loss there. My dad is a wildcard, I honestly can't tell if he would support me or dismiss me as being impressionable and stupid.

In the last year or so I've made a few small changes. I started growing out my hair which is now at shoulder height; shaving my body and secretly trying out make-up. I bought a stylish women's t-shirt a month ago but haven't summed up the courage to go back and buy anything else. Walking into a store and trying to look at clothing while avoiding other customers staring at you can be exhausting.

My biggest fear is that when I come out it will divide my family, which is a burden I hate to put on them, and a guilt I'd rather not have.

My biggest hope one day I won't have to fake smile when I look at the mirror, and that I will gain the confidence i so desperately need.

Thanks for taking the time to read, hope it wasn't to long,

Ashley

Greetings From Toronto :-) !

TorontoGirl4Life — Sun, 13 May 2012 16:34:49 GMT

Hey Everyone,

I'm Carmen, 25 years of age and currently preoperative. I have an incredible boyfriend whose very supportive of me and my transition. I'm here to make new friends be it with local or non local folk and hopefully help people with their transitions if their unsure of something. I'm hoping to hear from some of you soon !. You can check out my profile and send me a message to my inbox if you'd like too :-).

Take Care

~ Carmen ~

For people on Ontario Disability Support Program..

Shawna — Sun, 13 May 2012 10:44:48 GMT

Hi,
I started working as a woman at my job about 3 weeks ago, and everyone has been great. However, the new wardrobe for work was putting a tax on my finances. I am on ODSP, and I realized they have a program called Employment startup benefits. Though this is usually for people starting a job or who have had a fire and need new clothes for their job, I thought I'd apply, stating that I felt like I was starting a new job as my new self, Shawna. And, to my surprise, I found that after about a week, my application was approved.
So, if you are on ODSP (I think OW might have a similar program) and need money for work clothes when you transition, you can always apply there.
Cheers!
Shawna

Hi from KW

Samantha — Sat, 12 May 2012 02:08:34 GMT

Hello all

I made this account a couple months ago and have not posted yet, life got in the way. Now that I have some time off, I thought I would introduce myself. I am a 21 year old MtF living in the KW area of Ontario, but go to college in Toronto and will be living there in about 4 months. As you can tell from my user name my name is Samantha, I answer to that or any short form of it. I am per everything at the moment. I have not gotten up the nerve to tell my family yet as I don�t know how they will react. I have several friends who know, they are very supportive.
Here is a little about me, I tend to ramble when typing stuff so sorry If this gets long. If it gets confusing at times I am also sorry I don�t want to use people names for a number of reasons, I will do my best to make it all make sense.

I have known for longer than I can remember that there was something different about me. I never told anyone what I was feeling because I knew it was not normal. I was bullied a lot in school and thought that if I told someone that the bulling would only get worse. When I hit high school the feeling only got stronger, I got scared that someone would find out, so I started suppressing them more and more. I acted the way I thought a guy would. Around grade 11 I started hanging with some girls, made me so happy to be around them and not a bunch of guys all day. I eventually told one of them, she was not too suppressed. As she, along with the rest of the girls turns out, thought I was gay. She kept my secret and helped me realize I needed to stop suppressing thing and embrace them, this is who I am there is nothing wrong with that. A year after that she moved away and we lost touch.

When I started college I had only told one other person. The first year went by so fast I don�t even remember most of it. I think part of that is that, and I only realized this after, I was acting the way I thought they would expect a guy to act. I kept in touch with some of my new friends over the summer and got more comfortable talking to them as me and not the guy I they knew me as. I ended up becoming very good friends with one person in my program and we even took a school trip to Italy together for 14 days, it was for one of our general education classes. By the end of the school year we were the best of friends, people thought we knew each other since we were kids. Then one knight just after school was done for the summer this person told me they were trans, I froze. I told them I was fine with it and that they were still by best friend and that nothing would change that. I did not tell them about meright then for some reason and I don�t know why, it ended up being a bad thing that I did not. About a week later we were texting at 2a.m. like we did every night for months, and I told them there was something I had been meaning to tell them. I told them that I was trans myself. It started off with this person not believing me 100%, they told me that they knew there was something I had been hiding all along but that that was not it. We started fighting more and more and then just stopped taking.

When school started again I started hanging out with a new group of people in the program. As the people I had been hanging out with since starting college were hanging out with the person that was still mad at me, to the point they would have hit me if I gave them the chance. We ended up talking to each other twice before Christmas, they wanted to clear the air between us, and it did not work if you ask me. In February we talked again and it only got worse, I had a lot on my mind and did not want to take just yet (I was going to talk to them 2 days after when I had cleared my mind) but they did. We talked, well they talked and I just stood there, my mind was elsewhere. I had been building up the strength to tell two friends about me. They are both very supportive of me. I will be moving in with them in 4 months when school starts again. 2 weeks before the end of class, I was sitting talking to my roommate and the person I had been friends with sat next to him. We started talking like nothing had happened, it was weird at first but that went away fast. We have been talking again now for 4 weeks and seems to be fine.

All in there are 5 people, I know of, that know about me. The person I told the summer before college is a psychiatrist; he is not legally able to be mine as he is my uncle. But we talk and he does help, but that is all he is able to do. Since I told him years ago he has been trying to get me to wright a book or at least wright something for the book he is trying to write. After the trip to Italy with the school last year he has been trying to get me to write 2 books. He has pushed me to tell my family since I told him, in fact it was the first thing he said to me after I told him. I want to tell them. I was thinking when they get back from the trip they are on. But then I was told that when they get back my mom is going to be weaned off her anti-depressant and a painkiller, to be put on 1 drug that will do both. Now I am thinking that I should hold off till she is on this new drug, as I don�t want to upset her with this news when she is depressed more than normal.

Even though my friend that know are supportive and all, they still find it weird when I tell something�s. So I try and not make them uncomfortable. So I�m going to tell the world about this and not them directly. I had an overall small accomplishment, but for me was massive, today. Living in a small town where everyone knows everyone, well use to be like that. I still know everyone that lives around me. With my parents on a trip for the next 2 weeks and my brother staying at his girlfriend�s house. I did something I almost never do and something I have never done before. I got all dressed up in my one female outfit; it is not much just a par of panties, a shirt and a pair of women's jeans. I only ever wear this stuff around the house and almost never all at the same time. I had some yard work to do this afternoon and forgot what I was wearing and just started doing it. After about 10 min I realized what I was wearing and thought it has been this long and only had about 5 or 10 more minutes of work, so I just stayed out and did it. Felt so good when I was done, not to care who had seen me.

Well that was more than I thought I would type. Feel free to ask me anything, I should feel comfortable answering anything and if I don�t I will let you know I don�t.

<3 Samantha.

Name change?

oxycat — Thu, 10 May 2012 17:17:22 GMT

Do/can mods do a change of name? Pretty pleeaaase.. : ]

Hi from Vancouver but currently Wales!

MaddiLeToast — Wed, 09 May 2012 16:37:54 GMT

Hi all! Just like to say that it's awesome that I finally found this site!

I've known about myself since I was quite young, but it has only been recently that I've gotten more courageous and exploring it further, finding out this is eventually the person that I want to be.

Hope to be quite active on the site!

Thanks for welcoming me into the fold!

-Maddi

New Tv series 'My Transsexual wedding'

ianp — Wed, 09 May 2012 13:48:02 GMT

Hello.

My name is Ian Parton. I work for a UK based TV production company called Electric Sky.

I am posting to ask if you may be able to help with a programme idea I am developing for TLC in North America.

Last year UK TV aired a great series called �My Transsexual Summer� which was met with a warm reception from viewers, the transsexual community and those who contributed to the series. Our series �My Transsexual Wedding� would aim to continue the respectful and un-sensationalist tone of �My Transsexual Summer� but focus on couples � one of whom is transgender � who are planning to marry.

The programme would offer a portrait of the day to day challenges the couple experiences, the perception of their forthcoming marriage by the outside world and it would tell their life stories. The arrangements of the wedding and the day itself would offer a nice framework around which to tell these stories. Ultimately the series is celebratory as, well, marriages are a time of celebration.

I appreciate the transgender community often are, quite rightfully, suspicious of their representation in the media but I believe this series would have a positive effect.

I am posting to ask if anyone is planning to marry and would be interested in discussing the programme further.

This would be a no pressure conversation. Our executive producer here has a great track record in making thoughtful programming on sensitive subject matters.

We already have approval from 4 couples who will be marrying in the future and if the programme gets made aim to work closely with Trans media Watch to get its tone just right.

If you would like to contact me my email is ian dot parton at electricsky dot com

I greatly appreciate your time.

Ian Parton

o hers a dozy

moosetim — Mon, 07 May 2012 01:09:54 GMT

1 of the hardest parts recently is the he she in my head iv always bin she u no in thinking and way bake talking and i have had to forces myself no train myself to not slip up and im wearied that kind of mind training gona hamper me being me withe friends and society cus at home its not hard and now im gona haft to correct papal

hi from sask

moosetim — Sat, 05 May 2012 13:14:12 GMT

hi I'm Tim England i have always wonted to be Kim, and I'm pretty happy go lucky, and enjoy most of life. i have wonted to be female all my life. act like 1 dress like 1 but I'm a country boy from rural Saskatchewan and have bin scared of the repercussions. watching videos and Reading posts i see that pepal ho come to terms have hapeir lives i don't wont to be sad about me i don't wona have to hid cus i feel a sertent way and i hope withe the support of friends and family i hope this wont be as hard as i think it will be to be at peace with my self

Hello from Montreal

genderchallanged — Fri, 04 May 2012 22:06:54 GMT

Wanted to say hi to everyone. I have been on this path for well over 7 years full time and amost 10 years hrt.. It has been one of the hardest paths i have walked in my lifetime, but has been well worth all the ups and downs to be myself. That said no one know who you are other then you, no one..

Genderqueer or genderconfused?

battleferrets — Thu, 03 May 2012 23:43:12 GMT

So, I'm female-bodied, but have chest dysphoria and I am dysphoric over my uterus/ovaries, but that one's easier to ignore other than that dreaded time once a month. I am openly out as a butch lesbian, but I consider myself gynesexual, or attracted to femininity, because I can't consider myself 100% female. My closet is 80% male clothing, and I actively try to pass as male 90% of the time, though with my chest (37/40C) and hips (41) it's nigh impossible. Every time I succeed and someone mistakes me as male I feel... ecstatic, is really the only word for it. I try and walk like a man, the thought of being 'mom' instead of 'dad' just doesn't sit right with me, my three younger brothers already consider me a brother, I use male hygiene products... more and more things keep adding up, and it's getting kind of hard to ignore.

But I feel like I must be mistaken, because there's been no clap thunder or ringing of bells. I was a tomboy growing up and always had more male friends and have never been interested in anything stereotypically 'girly' like shopping or dresses or makeup or any of that, but I never thought of myself as a boy. I cross-dressed in high school, but I don't know if that was because I was trying to pass as male, or because I thought the only way women would ever like me was if they thought I was a man, but high school was a confusing time for me. My chest dysphoria kicked in as soon as I started developing, and I pretended it didn't exist as long as I could, but I was heavier set back then and had a larger chest in turn, so going without a bra drew more attention than not.

I'm terrified what my family would think, and my friends, even though they've loved and supported me through all my issues so far...

I know I can't ask others if I'm transgendered but... I can't seem to answer the question myself either.

Hello from Nova Scotia...

Maverick83 — Wed, 02 May 2012 15:08:50 GMT

I'm 28 FTM

I've been on hormones since 2004 and am almost complete, montreal is my last destination. (Already had hysto and chest done)
I have been approved for funding for my phalloplasty and am on the waiting list. It's been a long rough road but i'm still here i guess.

PEI Physicians/ Endocrinologists

matt — Wed, 02 May 2012 14:32:45 GMT

Hi all-
I'm trying to help someone find a physician and/ or endocrinologist in Charlottetown or Halifax so that they can start HRT. Are there any names or health centres that would be good to suggest? Any help would be much appreciated!
thanks-

Valley Youth Project

Eon — Tue, 01 May 2012 20:00:08 GMT

I was really glad to find a group based thing near-by. However, no one seems to be attending it! It's such a shame, because there is so much camaraderie and fun that could be had. ):
IDK if this post will make much difference, but I figured I'd give it a try anyway.

Since I apparently can't post links, just Google 'Valley Youth Project' and their Facebook page should be the first result. It would be great if this became a stronger force, as I imagine there are at least a few people out there who could use it.

Hello from the Wet Coast!

kerrianne — Sat, 28 Apr 2012 04:13:13 GMT

Hi everyone!
For some reason I missed that this forum was here. I belong to lots of other forums but a Canadian specific one seems like a good idea.
I am a 50-something transwoman from near Vancouver, a west coaster all my life. I transitioned (full time, name change), in June 2009 and life has been real and alive for me since. I expected my life to improve but it has improved a LOT more than I could ever have imagined. I am very very blessed to have had such love and support in my life, from my partner of 28 years, to my family and friends and co-workers.

I am off to have GRS in Montreal real soon! May 9, 2012. So excited (and sometimes terrified lol).

I actually found this forum by doing a search for pictures of the residence care next to Dr. Brassard's clinic. I was on Google Streetview and tried to save a pic of the residence with hospital in background so friends and family could picture where I will be, but couldn't do a capture or save so I just googled to see if anyone had posted pics themselves and lo and behold found a thread here posted by Rachel, that also shows the inside of the residence. :D

Anyway, nice to be here! :D

Kerrianne :)

Transgender woman in Turkey attacked

demishevich — Tue, 24 Apr 2012 06:45:55 GMT

A transgender woman was beaten up by seven men outside her home in Istanbul last night
23 APRIL 2012 | BY ANNA LEACH
Gaystarnews

A transgender woman was attacked in the street outside her home in Istanbul last night when she took her dog out for a walk.

Michelle Demishevich told Gay Star News that in the early hours of Monday (today, 23 April) she and her dog were attacked by seven men for about five minutes, while neighbours just watched from their homes.

Demishevich, who is a campaigner for LGBT rights in Turkey, later called the police but she doesn't feel confident they are investigating the attack thoroughly.

'Maybe tomorrow maybe the day after tomorrow it will be happen again,' said Demishevich. 'Maybe the next week someone kill me. It has become so hard to live as a transgender in this country. The people hate us. The people every single day attacking and killing the transgender. Turkey is not safe anymore.'

Seb the Immigrant

sebmichail — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 01:55:52 GMT

Hello! My name is Sebastian but you can call me Seb. I currently reside in NJ, USA, but in the fall I will be attending University of Toronto and I plan to live in Canada after college - I hate the United States and love Canada <3

I am going to be starting my transition in college. I'm FTM but sometimes identify closer to genderqueer than a male binary. I am not out at school and barely among my friends and family, however I am known by my chosen name at all political organizations to which I am a member.

I am dating a beautiful transguy from Georgia who is planning on moving up to Toronto to be with me, so I'm here for all the information, resources, and friends who can help us out with our transitions in Canada.

Hope to talk to you all soon!